I know how it feels to stop and think “where did that part of me go?” To get caught up in “all hard work, no play” and with “fitting in” only to wind up feeling “left out”. To fight the internal battle about how you’re not measuring up to other people. To spend all your time stressing and worrying and moving further and further from yourself. The gears grind to a halt and you end up feeling stuck in the mud with a person you don’t quite feel is you. I was overwhelmed, disconnected, and thought self development was a woo-woo land of unicorns and sage sticks that held nothing for me. Boy was I wrong.
With a successful and promising career in digital advertising on the go, it was all work no play. So I took 18 months off at the age of 24 to indulge my wanderlust and travel the world. Truth be told, even then I was already feeling unsatisfied, burnt out and depleted by the thought of hustling my way up the corporate ladder, and deeply disconnected from my younger creative Self. While on my travels I picked up an unwelcome, and unlikely travel companion. A damaged relationship to food, and intensely destructive body image. This experience completely changed my perspective, and I returned without the gusto I once had for the advertising industry. Yet I shackled myself back in because it was "the right thing to do", "the only thing I'm good at", and "the only way I can earn a living" - right? But as a self confessed perfectionist it never felt “right” enough, I was never good enough, and was constantly terrified that I wasn't earning enough. I was in a complete state of lack and disconnection, both toward my career and my body.
Without really knowing why, I took a leap and enrolled in Pilates Instructor Training. "She broke free!" you're thinking? Not quite. I still held onto my digital career, because who would leave 6 years of achievement for a massive pay cut to teach Pilates classes? How irresponsible! Yes, fear continued to hold me back until I was given the opportunity once again to relocate, this time to live in Denmark for 18 months. I used this as an opportunity to unlock those shackles. I left my career in Australia and didn't take it with me. What I took was my teaching, and a burning desire to rediscover that spark I knew I had in me but had been lost through the act of living for expectations and ideals. And with all that mental energy returned to me, the unwavering support of my husband, a therapist, a wellness coach and a toolkit of books, podcasts, retreats and meditation - I found the key. Get your spark back. Then never let it go. I spent my time mastering my mindset. Learning to believe in myself. Loving my body again. Getting creative. Trusting, and truly owning the rhythm to which I wanted to live my life. Playing with the world. Redefining success. And I began to feel so alive. I now enjoy what I call a ‘bento-box’ career, wearing many hats as a Pilates + Yin Yoga instructor, copywriter, and Life Coach. Yes, it came with uncertainty, less security and less financial independence, but it also came with so much more. An Electrified Life. And that is what I want for all of you. To support you, cheer you on, and light your spark for all to see! Read more of my personal story in this blog post "The Path to Here".